Sunday, July 23, 2006

bleh. just had a nap. feel much more energized, shall chiong hw after dinner. must bear in mind i set a full mark target for my math test tmr. still abit annoyed. heh. but after some sleep. i m somewhere along the lines of hu cares. at least i m not rehearsing it. heh.

my gosh. u know its like sunday. and my dad gave me my allowance on saturday. and like 5 bucks is left la. my gosh. nic tan. u r such a spendthrift. i think i really need to manage my finances better. sometimes i feel like just going up and asking him 'dad, can increase my allowance cus not enough.' but i think of my phone bill and the nonsense amounts i spend with my nets card, i tell myself, i shall make it thru one month without overspending and prove to myself i can be faithful with the little things first. heh.

oh yar. when i came home, i was actually feeling so annoyed that i forgot all about service. heh. the word was actually darn funny la. quite an eye opener too. never knew certain stuff pastor kong said. heh. but people like me. more or less wont get married one la. oh my gosh, heh, i was starting to read my blog to make sure it sounded ok and everything, den it just popped into my head, i dreamt one night weeks ago that during a service where pastor Kong spoke about marraige, i had an encounter with God, heh, hope it really comes to pass. haha. anyway. as usual this few weeks, have been really moody when i went for cell and service, it was slightly better today, but i feel my spirit man being built up thru praise. its like first i ll start off not feeling like doing anything, but den the presence and the annointing comes. heh. just induced that feeling to sing and dance. den worship came and we sang take of me and sanctuary. and it was like that heavy heart that was plaguing me, i just let it up, i was like crying out, take it all, take it all, nothing else matters. den its like for awhile i just felt an intensity in the spirit, and i felt a hand come upon my right shoulder and comforted me. it was just great. but i still really wanna grow deeper, but simplying saying that on my blog isnt gonna work. heh. faith without works is dead my dear boy..

i was actually quite depressed heh. cant have everything. slowly la. i tot i could balance study, campus ministry, cell, service, bs, ministry and leisure.

guess not.

but slowly la. Lord enlarge my capacity.

that was why i wanted company after service, which was why i didnt at all appreciate wad someone did. couldnt promise we be saints sitting there, but i know that before someone came. i promised myself i wouldnt go so far. i just wanted a hug and company. oh wells. thanks alot hor!

people can annoy me. but God fixes things, He never annoys me, instead, He comforts me and gives me strength. heh. wad a great heavenly daddy i have man!

|cowpoo| 6:52 PM|

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